Happy 18th Birthday
Sixteen was hard I thought,eighteen is harder, let me put that down.
The emotional cutting of the cord that starts as the teen years set in , somehow is complete about this time I believe.
The painkillers and all that aid in physical pain of labour and birth and cutting of the cord lose all their power and offer no balm when the emotional cutting of the cord happens .
It hurts , only just as much as it hurts when the heart gets ripped out of the chest.
I'm not ready to let go . Fly away he will though, whether I'm ready or not. And I will only know if I have done right by him or not ,when he chooses to return on his own.